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a semi-aware state of mind. not really knowing what is true and what is false. wondering if what you are doing is actually happening or if it just a thought., sometimes you hope it is just a thought, but sometimes you really hope it is reality. This reality, is a reality you wish to encompass your life. the meaningless existence you live in. A life that serves no greater purposes, but has a false promise of actual fulfillment. The fulfilment doesn't exist. It's a depressing thought to know it doesn't exist. I wish it did. But really, I'm glad it doesn't. Fulfillment and hope are false promises. Promises used to satisfy people who aren't able to accept the truth which they are fighting so hard to disprove. I wish sometimes it was different. Actually, I wish all the time. I wish I didn't have to wake up everymorning and realize that this day was going to be shittier than the previous one. Our society has only destroyed the world we inhibit. I fear for the children that will be raised in this society. Maybe they will be forced to eat out of test-tubes for the entiriety of their lives because the chicken population expired because of the high level of pollution in the air. We are so fucked. So literally beyond fucked that the damage we have done is irreversible. Irreversible to the point that God's Intervention wouldn't be able to change what has happened. Maybe this reality I;m living is all a perception i've established that doesn't really exist. I wish it was, that way I know I wouldn't have to deal with getting from one day to another