oriGinal song

I don't really know what were fighting about
but I am broken by emotions that have hollowed me out
and it hurts and it burns
when I think of the words I told her

tired and weaker, I'm broken and bruised
you know I'm totally hopeless
completely confused
and it seems you and me won't ever be happy will we?

what we had is over
our run with love is through
so why am I still stuck here missing you?

and don't say you love me when you don't
cause if you look back
I think you'd say that we couldn't last

and don't say you're sorry when your not
cause all the phone calls
the love songs
are in the past

oh it went to fast
but it always does
and what I miss most
is the man I was
back when I had, you

I don't know what happened
I wound up alone
would've lessoned the heartache
if I'd only known
that my time was blown on a girl that was nowhere near me

theres no happy ending, thats just how it goes
you know that life's a roller coaster, it ebs and it flows
and it throws me around
I know I have found my closure

the things you said still haunt me
the things you did do to
so why am I still stuck here missing you you?

and don't say you love me when you don't
cause if you looked back
I'd think you see that we couldn't last

and don't say your sorry not
cause all the phone calls
the love songs are in the past

oh it went to fast
but it always does
and what I miss most
is the man I was
back when I had you

the harmony, we used to make
is trailing out in volumes
now I waste away the time
I used to call you to say I was sorry
cause baby I'm sorry

91.

surface
barely scratched
the demons
clawing away
whispering their false truths into a believing soul
outward appearances
perception might as well be reality
but this is a betrayal
to the actual truth
self-loathing
each moment becoming increasingly heavy
like the words from your parents about an impending divorce
there are two types of hatred
the type that erupts when confronted
and the type that is slow moving
quietly in the background of every happy memory you can conjure
mounting further and further
so when the waters turn red,
don't be surprised if my final gesture is a smile